A bad dream

i just woke up from a bad dream!

my friends and batchmate parents ask me to call.friends in Baguio City because his daughter will be taking an exam there.

i agree to help with their accomodation. i call friends to take them in for a few days.

i saw people in white uniform walking and i think they will be taking the board exam.

then i walked in a room where my batchmate were staying i thought there aill only be two of them but to my surprise, almost my groupmate in our section is there.  they too will take.the board.

im crying out of jealousy. i wish i could take the board too but i have to pay my tuition fee in full to claim my papers.  sadly i have more bills than to save money to be able.to take the board.

after that i went home.

in my dream there was my grandson staring at me and he is sad coz he saw me crying.

i hugged him.

i woke up still crying.

my frustration. i want to try. i want to be an R.N. 

but priorities are priorities.

i need.to make a living for the many not just for myself.