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How can i heal when all i see has to do something with you how can i forget when almost forever we are with you how can i not love you when all your life was spent on loving us how can cure my broken heart. ma always lead the way ma always took the lead ma always in everything we do ma is our backbone. give me time to heal give my heart the peace acceptance of what we have loss what we may never have again. god give us the strength to live on to follow the life mama lead a new hope for the family a new light for the future.

in the past we often fight for my dreams, her dreams.... but now how i long to hear her see her hug her kiss her argue with her... eat, talk, sit walk.. ma its been three days but still i cant accept it.  why so sudden.. the house would not be the same, the shop would not be that lively again without you... i havent got a chance to show you what i can do to empty those disappointment you had for me... ma wherever you are i want you to know that i love you and i am asking for forgiveness for all the wrong i have done, the things i did to make you cry, to make you sad, disappointed and suffer. i have enjoyed the day i am with you your memories will remain with us your love will continue.. i promise you i will be strong i will provide for the family i will be a better person even if i cannot be like you because you are the best... ma i miss you so much your voice your lectures your face, your care for us, everything... ma help me help us get over this grief... help us get over thi...

PAALAM SAYO MA HINDI KA NAMIN MAKAKALIMUTAN MAHAL NA MAHAL KA NAMIN... IBINIBIGAY NA KITA SA DIOS AMA NA LUMIKHA SA ATIN... ALAM KO MAYROON SYANG IBANG BALAK KUNG BAKIT KA NYA KINUHA SA AMIN... MAHAL NA MAHAL KA NAMIN MA HINDING HINDI KA NAMIN MALILIMUTAN!

I KNOW ITS TOO EARLY TO GIVE MY GREATEST FULLEST AND THE MOVE ABOVE GRATITUDE FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE GIVEN THEIR TIME AND EFFORT TO VISIT OUR MAMA.... THERE IS NOW HOPE IN HER EYES... THE EDEMA HAD GONE DOWN... I KNOW SHE CAN MAKE IT... AS TO WHAT THE DOCTORS SAID WE PUT THEM ALL ASIDE... WE ARE NOW SEEING A MIRACLE... I HOPE THIS MIRACLE WILL COME TRUE AS TIME GOES BY... MAMA WE LOVE YOU!! YOU CAN MAKE THIS... YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS SICKNESS... YOU ARE LOVED BY TOO MANY PEOPLE AND THESE PEOPLE HELP US YOUR FAMILY TO PRAY FOR YOUR WELLNESS... I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW MUCH IM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THOSE WHO MADE MY MAMA'S DAYS... I LOVE YOU ALL THANK YOU SO MUCH MAY GOD BLESS US ALL.

HOPE LETS SPELL IT Hoping that Okay results will be.. Prayers will do it and Everything will change on mama's condition..to wellness!! I FINALLY MADE IT TO MAMA'S ROOM... I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE HER EVEN THOUGH SHE LOOKS SO THIN AND THE LOOK IN HER FACE OF SUFFERING... SHE CALLED ME "ANG PANGANAY KO" (MY ELDEST CHILD) MAY PEOPLE FILLED THE ROOM, FROM HER FRIENDS, GODCHILD, SISTERS, BROTHER, SISTER IN LAW, COUSINS, NIECES, NEPHEWS, GRANDCHILDREN AND COLLEAGUES... MY MOM HAD A BIG FEET DUE TO EDEMA AND ITS LIKE A MIRACLE I HAVE MADE HER URINATE ALL NIGHT LONG UNTIL THE NEXT DAY.... THE EDEMA IS STILL THERE BUT I AM SO HAPPY THAT I HAVE UNDO SOME OF IT.... I FOUND HOPE... FROM HER FRIENDS AND OUR RELATIVES THAT SHE WOULD DO BETTER I EVEN TALKED TO HER DOCTOR ABOUT HER CONDITION AND SHE HAD TO REGAIN HER STRENGTH AS TO WHAT I SEE OBEDIENCE AND DISCIPLINE IS ALL SHE NEED. 800CC A DAY AND I MADE HER EAT WHAT SHE WANTS FOR THE FIRST TIME I SEE HER SMILE... PAPA WAS...

ewan ko ba kung bakit gumagawa pa ko nito sobrang sakit kasi ng nararamdaman ko na hindi ko maipakita sa ibang tao namumugtong mga mata namin ng kapatid ko kakaisip tumawag si mama na imbes namagsabi sya ng mga nararamdaman nya ito pa sinabi nya anak gabi na matulog ka na ha magpahinga ka jan hindi na ko makatulog dito may masakit hindi ko alam papa mo daldal ng daldal yaw tumigil kaka kwento.. ipagdasal nyo nlng ako.. si jaztin nasaan uuwi ba? ako pa yung inalala nya tumutulo ang luha ko habang kausap ko sya sana ako nlng yung nakakaramdam ng sakit na nararamdaman nya sana mailipat nlng sa akin kasi mahina sa sakit si mama e mababa ang pain tolerance nya...natatakot na kaming lahat naghihintay nlng kami... pero ano pa ba ang dapat kong gawin.. nalilito na ko.. wala kong makausap ang sakit sakit... wag nyo naman syang kunin sa amin ng ganito kaaga alam ko inispoiled nya kami sa lahat ng bagay... promise ma magbabago na kami... wag mo kaming iiwan please mahal na mahal ka namin l...

why does it hurt so much to know you are just waiting for the end of it??? i cant imagine living a life without her...  would i accept it?  i am so terrified i just cant let them see my sufferings on the news the doctor breaks....  there would never be an operation...  its just mama and the days waiting....  waiting for her death...  can we stop it?  can we deal with i? what pain does it cost? why do we have to suffer? why does good people have to go first?  WHY I STILL DONT KNOW THE ANSWER TO IT... I JUST WISH HE WILL EXTEND MAMA'S LIFE IN THIS EARTH...  I STILL TRUST OUR ALMIGHTY GOD THAT HE CAN DO ANYTHING IN THIS LIFE... HE LET US CHOOSE OUR DESTINY... HE LEAD US TO OUR FATE... HE WILL GUIDE US... I LIFT IT ALL TO YOU OUR ALMIGHTY GOD OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN... 

I just didnt know Doctors like her do exists.... you know if your involve or in line  or even have knowledge in the medical fields you would not behave like her if you have a heart... you knew from the start that people are seeking your help to cure and for a little hope that their patient or even the patient itself will regain their health in your arms... but why does a doctor like her tell her patient to discharge and that the hospital cannot do anything anymore... IM SO SHOCK! i hope she realize how badly we felt on the way she talk about mamas condition!

its been months since mama was sick... im loosing grip and getting low esteem on her recovery... but i know God is always with us.. He will lead us to where He wants us to be...  I almost jump religion when mama went to Antipolo- faith healer... She look a bit Okay when they arrived that day... i said ma if this continue i will shift catholic again.. i will believe in religion once again... but the next day.. it was like starting all over again... so i did what i had to do... work and pray... i know God and his only Son Jesus Christ has been hearing from me ever since... i know that They can understand everybody and can hear everybody... i just hope it would not be too late.... hold on ma... we love you and we need you!

Dear God, i just want to ask for a miracle... please hear us.. i just dont know what to do and expect anymore...

its been 11 days of new year and yet i am not that comfortable... ma is getting weaker and weaker.. though the operation is move to march we wonder if she can make it with what she is now.  her health is no good... with cough and getting thinner and thinner everyday... i think the main reason of her lack of appetite is stress.  i always told her that make it a come what may and we shall stick to what we have today and save for the future. i guess ma is too tired to work for all... she's been working ever since she knew even before the family came.  she is one great lady, mom, sister, aunt, friend... and yet to the darkest part of her life they deserted her... well not all though. they said when you do good to others it will be back unto you.. but to what i have observe now its not so true.  because mama all her  life she help her siblings, cousins, friends and any other relative of people but now or even before when mama is down no one is there to help her b...