ITS THE 75TH DAY
hi mom how are you? just celebrated marvin 33rd year (8th Apr) and jella's 4th year (11th Apr) birthday.. i super thank you for the lectures you have given me on how we can live everyday. i think we are all lying to ourselves even now coz i aint over with your death.. but somehow i manage to keep smiling and working.
ma.. i hope we can get those problems over and done on or before. dont worry mama i will not be stressful i will not be conquered by depression i will surpass every trial i will be like you a brave woman, an outstanding citizen, a mother to all and a business person. but somehow i will not adapt your faults faults that have given you the heart problem. i will try to laugh on problems sleep on it and think of things in the day and drink stresstabs.
sorry ma i will not be like you to help almost everyone who have broken your heart until the end.
im sorry ma for not being there on the day you left your earth body, im sorry ive been working too hard to earn for everything we need, im sorry for saying too much about your faults that failed your heart, of telling you the truth that you care for almost everyone in your world- in our world even if you cannot help everyone.
im sorry ma for still thinking about you and what could have been if we had enough.. im sorry ma for blaming myself not seeing the event before you leave us.. im sorry ma for everything i did that breaks your heart and im sorry for being you after you have gone.
ma another chapter of our lives has leave this chapter of the book is all about you it will be shelved but not forever everyday we keep on re-reading this book and reminiscing.
ma every now and then after you left i always wish to see you and talk to you in my dreams but you refuse you visited jella and great her a happy birthday and said sorry that you cannot come.
i wish ma that you will see me before my birthday comes thats my only wish because God knew everything we need and want and so gives us more and more each day and gives me solution to every problem we had.
i never had any dream after you left us ma i hope my first memorable dream would be with you.
see you when i get there ma... but before that please see me in my dreams. i love you and i still miss you.
your eldest,
jeng
ma.. i hope we can get those problems over and done on or before. dont worry mama i will not be stressful i will not be conquered by depression i will surpass every trial i will be like you a brave woman, an outstanding citizen, a mother to all and a business person. but somehow i will not adapt your faults faults that have given you the heart problem. i will try to laugh on problems sleep on it and think of things in the day and drink stresstabs.
sorry ma i will not be like you to help almost everyone who have broken your heart until the end.
im sorry ma for not being there on the day you left your earth body, im sorry ive been working too hard to earn for everything we need, im sorry for saying too much about your faults that failed your heart, of telling you the truth that you care for almost everyone in your world- in our world even if you cannot help everyone.
im sorry ma for still thinking about you and what could have been if we had enough.. im sorry ma for blaming myself not seeing the event before you leave us.. im sorry ma for everything i did that breaks your heart and im sorry for being you after you have gone.
ma another chapter of our lives has leave this chapter of the book is all about you it will be shelved but not forever everyday we keep on re-reading this book and reminiscing.
ma every now and then after you left i always wish to see you and talk to you in my dreams but you refuse you visited jella and great her a happy birthday and said sorry that you cannot come.
i wish ma that you will see me before my birthday comes thats my only wish because God knew everything we need and want and so gives us more and more each day and gives me solution to every problem we had.
i never had any dream after you left us ma i hope my first memorable dream would be with you.
see you when i get there ma... but before that please see me in my dreams. i love you and i still miss you.
your eldest,
jeng
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